Christopher’s Journey.

I was asked last week, when Christopher went back into HDU with his pneumonia, what I wanted for him.

In other words, do they make him ‘comfortable’ or do everything in their power to get him through.

I am f**ked off. This is the FOURTH time in the 3 months since Christopher has been born, that I have been asked this question!!!!!

I am upset that the Doctors would think that I would want an “out”.

Do they not understand that this is my kid? That I love him. That he has intelligence and is not going to be a vegetable. He has normal brain function and will go to a normal school. That he reacts, smiles and holds my fingers. I cuddle him and I feel the most overwhelming love for him and I can’t remember what my life was like without him.

This kid completes me. I feel like I have a purpose in life and that is Christopher.

His problems are physical and every one of them on an individual basis can and will be fixed. This will take time, I understand that, but that doesn’t mean that I want to be constantly asked about letting him go.

Why do they keep asking me this question? I am upset that they would think that a mother could let her child pass away, especially if there is a positive future and outcome for him.

I love my kid. End of story.

Thanks for reading.

Rant over.